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Dear Montana

Dear Montana

I remember the first time we met.  I was just an eleven year old girl who’d never been more than a few miles from her Midwest home.  You introduced me to mountains for the first time ever, and I fell in love with them… and with you. 

Under your Big Sky, I had many firsts… first time camping, first floating the irrigation canal, first high school, first jumping off a bridge into crystal clear, cool Gallatin River, first time snow skiing and first time water skiing.  You are where I made my first life-long, there-for-me-anytime friends.  My first 4th of July snowfall happened during your watch, too, come to think of it.  Thanks for that, by the way.

Tomorrow I drive out of the big, rain-soaked city, leave the Evergreen State and return to you.  I bring my most important “First” with me – my first-born son.  I pray you watch over him as he takes his first steps on your soil and learns his life-lessons in the shadow of your mountains. 

I promise to teach him to respect you and all that is yours… your clean waters, your flowing grasses, and all your wild things. It is said that there is a first time for everything… I am happy my next first is with you, Montana.

with love, from the eleven year old girl who still lives in my heart.

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Posted by on May 23, 2013 in Uncategorized


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The washer/dryer unit in our van down by the river, the one I JUST HAD to have, is great. But small. And is just one machine. Really. The washer becomes the dryer at the end of the washing cycle. It’s called a Splendide.  And it really is splendid. One load takes 2.85 days. Ok, maybe it only takes a day and a half.

So I am grateful this RV park has a coin-operated laundry facility. Reminds me of life at Smith College. Without the college students. And people are way better about getting their laundry moved through … except for me…when the baby is napping. I have a crisis: uh, risk the laundry being left for too long and then moved by the next launderer because the baby is sleeping or dare to run to the laundry room while he’s asleep. I let the laundry fall where it may and stay with the kid, of course.

RV-ers are lazy, like college students (and if you are a college student who ISN’T lazy, that’s good, you are the exception to the rule so don’t take offense). Apparently laundering is best done in the early morning. I never see anyone stirring around much before 10 am… that’s when the rush for machines kicks up. But I always panic that the park attendants will come by w/ my wet laundry and a citation for lazy laundering. It has yet to happen. We all fear something, right?

Well…the baby just woke up and I finally scrounged one more quarter from the couch cushions to pay for the next load.

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Posted by on May 15, 2013 in Uncategorized


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Motherhood – Slightly Out Of Focus

Motherhood is a little out of focus now and then. Just when you think you have it down, when you say, “I got this,” it changes. Nap time starts sooner, or later and lasts longer or barely a half hour. It’s a fuzzy thing, nap time. 

The Future, once crystal clear like the moon viewed through a telescope, becomes a bit blurry. The little human’s immediate needs take priority over all future plans, like showering or dinner.

Self-assuredness gets a little shaky. Should I order up the next size larger diaper from Amazon? Which onesie should I pack in the diaper bag? How important is it that I clean that toy that just fell on the floor? Hmmm… if it was a piece of dark chocolate for me then the 10 minute rule clearly applies. A little dirt and extra germ or two never hurt anyone, right? 

If motherhood was clean-edged, completely mapped out then bookshelves wouldn’t be laden with books on how to do it right.  I find it funny how they all say, “You are the expert on your child,” and go on to advise in ways that make the reader feel anything but.

Just like taking pictures, sometimes I am gonna get this motherhood thing just right… the lighting, the zoom, the color, the contrast…and then sometimes my motherhood skills will be slightly (or maybe totally) out of focus.

So, Happy Mother’s Day to all the out-of-focus moms like me!

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Posted by on May 12, 2013 in Uncategorized


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